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Tuesday, April 03, 2007 8:33:00 PM
some thoughts to share.
i think i am someone who people deem as nice. yes, nice. plain ol' nice.
i always think that there're a lot of people who do not like me.
may be due to my attitude, towards work, people.
i know of cases where someone really disliked me, and i don't know why.
am i just plain irritating? hmm..
anyways, i have this belief towards work that i follow strictly to ---- commitment.
to me, being loyal and giving your best, is basic courtesy.
to achieve this, i can be pretty aggressive.
an example is the cca fair last wednesday.
i seem to think that i am the only one who really wants jones to sign up.
are the rest that bo chap? i would say yes.
i asked for their target amount of sign ups and guess the answer.
one. o-n-e one.
for me? i was hoping around 20.
we all know it's impossible to reach that target and having one is really good but can't they be more supportive?
leaving matters to the last minute and hoping it will be smooth sailing is not an option, it's an area of concern.
(pardon the badly structured english.)
they really hope it will be good, turn out well.
serious.
should i not be worried?
should i just hang around and let it be?
i can't.
i have this horrible trait.
that is, being super commited to my cca, once i have settled down.
i don't know. really. i don't.
not sure about how well we can keep the relationships going with my attitude.
i think we will do fine, hoping they don't really remember or detest me.
i feel like an idiot for being the only super commited one.
whatever.
do i want to care so much?
