2PM: 7=1

Thursday, March 29, 2007 10:29:00 PM

woohoo!
this is miss perv speaking. haha.
i am seriously perv lah.

first i like his left hand. then again, i do have an obsession with left handers.
then now i put this pic as my blog pic.
it's so wrong looking.
but i love this pic.
i thought it spoke volumes.
and it enhances yet another obsession of mine. the waist.
look at the way abu holds zhe's waist.
woohoo!
the perv is howling!

hahaa.
i am really a perv.
opps.

((:

Tuesday, March 27, 2007 8:59:00 PM

愛，就是要給你幸福。
而我，卻無法給你你想要的東西。
無意間闖入你的生活，對不起。
所以，我還是走吧。
或許這是我們之間最好的結局。
誰說愛一定就要在身邊的。
遠遠的觀望也應該是一種愛吧。

那天晚上又看見你了。
你還是那個樣子，懶懶散散的，好像對什麼都不在乎。
還是那個路口，這個季節夜晚的清風很涼了。
只是，只是我走過去的時候，
裝作沒有看到你，低頭看自己的步子，告訴自己別亂別亂。
我們，都已經過去了吧。

可是當你回過身跟我說話的時候，我的心又開始疼了。
下午在車上和朋友說起你和那個女孩子，
心忽然被刀子劃過去一樣，很疼很疼。
大家都說我是個永遠面帶笑容的女孩子，
快樂的好像從來不知道什麼是悲傷。
怎麼會呢，只是他們都不知道罷了。
你就是我的心裏最大的缺口。

前些天告訴身邊失戀的朋友，
要改變曾經的戀人在心中的位置，
要把他從心的左邊拿走，這樣就會好些。
我講這些的時候，暗暗的一直罵自己沒用。
什麼樣的道理我都明白的，
可是為什麼一牽扯到你，
我就會開始亂了分寸呢。

坐在樹林的石凳上，
下過雨的空氣有青草的味道。
你是最喜歡這些自然的味道的，
我坐在這裏，想起曾經的我們也總是長久的坐在一起，
話語很少，卻都感覺美好。
這樣的日子，是從什麼時候開始不再來的呢。
你究竟是什麼時候從我的身邊走開的呢，
我都不記得了。

我所有記得的，
唯有全部的好時光。
我說過，你所帶給我的那些短暫的幸福，
足以抵消往後的日子沒有你的長長的憂傷。
我看著我們唯一的一張合照，
是那次我們爬山之後拍的吧。
我累的笑容疲倦，你的笑容卻很靦腆。
大家說，你們好像舊時男女相親的模樣呢。
曾經，
這是我多麼愛聽的一句話啊。

儘管結局只有分離，
可是我還是要感謝你所給我的那些溫和的愛。
不記得是誰說過的，溫和的愛是世界上最可怕的力量，
它可以建立也可以摧毀一切事物。
還好，你溫暖了我這顆殘缺的心，
你從開始到現在，都只讓我感覺到了幸福，
雖然這些已經不復存在。

看過那紅顏白髮的故事，
慶倖自己遇到的不是會誤我一生的男子，
雖然弱水三千，你所取的並不是我這一瓢。
但是你卻讓我知道了，
這一生很長，
在這長長的一生當中，
可以遇見一個傾心的人，縱使如花美眷老了，
也是值得的。
這一生又很短，
短的我還沒來得及多笑幾次，
就彈指過去了。

有一天，無意看到一段話，
說的是海水乾涸，有兩條魚互相喂給對方嘴裏的唾沫籍以生存，
而當海水上漲，他們還是要分開來去，回到各自的天地。
那一刻我終於明白，
與其相濡以沫，不如相忘於江湖。
鏡花水月最後終歸虛無。
一切過往，都在我心褶皺處一筆劃滿，
再無其他。

人生之事，
你向我走來，而我也向你走去，
這樣簡單，已屬奇跡。
你我的遇見，已是最大的緣分。
從此青春不回頭。
人生聚散，再深的緣，終免不了一場分離。
種種你我之間的過往，
在時光中漸漸模糊，
只是一些細枝末節，早已養成習慣一般，
烙在我的生命裏，再也拋不去。

just read this somewhere.
it's so...

8:47:00 PM

wanted to say something but i forgot. supposed to be a happy thing.
hmm.

(0_0)...

8:32:00 PM

hellos people. here to blog again (DUH!)

today, i shall share about my mom. she can get so funny. yesterday i was telling her i'll be going to HK and barcelona at the end of the year and guess what? she thought barcelona's in taiwan. hahaa. so funny right.

and i really want to stay and work in taiwan. if not work, then study. man. i am like so looking forward to a life there. maybe i can just settle down there till i get married and give birth (if i ever), before coming back to singapore to give my child a better education. i seriously don't think i can afford international schooling for them in taiwan. i want to fly to taiwan now!

what can i do there? probably teach english. haha. so i better make sure my english is good enough to survive there, even though theirs is kinda horrible. if i can't make it as an english teacher, i guess i just have to make do with being a worker in a record/management company. haha.

what else? oh. seems like a lot of people are retaking their a's. saw xiaohan, the band girl, in school yesterday and today. was thinking why would she want to crash the school. then i saw weihao, the guy from aquila, today and i got a shock. but sorta guessed something. talked to him and yups, suspicion confirmed. he's in s16 now.

kinda surprised they can come back and retake cos new syllabus. hmm. anyways, khainam should be going to MI. man. i miss nam. if only he could come back but i think it's better to go to MI and continue with the old syllabus.

now, it got all of us wondering. are we all going do horribly for a's and come back to retake? i don't want it. it suck. being a j2 suck like crap. i would love to just stay in j1 forever, all my life, but all of us have to grow up don't we? damn.

okay. so much about having good english to survive in taiwan. mine really suck.

one last point. i think i am becoming more and more similiar to that loser/loner friend of mine. as in the tone and words we use, which is kinda bad.

:(

Sunday, March 25, 2007 9:13:00 PM

hellos! i want to talk about iccs today. heee. basically it's coastal clean up and we went to clean up sungei buloh yesterday. anyways, the main point of the post is not about the cleaning but about bernice, my cca mate.

i tell you guys, bernice is really cute! i can't decide if she's a bung but i heard she is. anyway, she is really cute. like her eyes are gorgeous. and she had that innocent look once in a while. i told her,"你可以不要以那种无辜的眼神看着我吗?" sounds familiar? yes. it's what xiuyi told ruixi when he thought that he was a gay. yups. that's how cute bernice is. man. i really love her eyes. and she's so cute. easily amused okay. maybe, just that i am amusing to her. haha.

she loves to play with my hair. cos it seems so bouncy. haha. she bounces my fringe okays. and she thinks it's really fun and cute. so when i showed her how 'fun' it is to be bounced, as in i do it to her hair, she realised it's not that nice. but she just can't resist doing it. like how cute right? hahaa.

i sound like a lesbo. okays. sorry lah. hahaa. have this thing for cute girls. hahaa. so wrong.

then i was thinking, do guys think that guys look at each other and go,'so cute!' too? it seems kinda gay. but when girls do that, it's perfectly normal. guess i am just bias. (:

okays. i'm looking at mr tang's pictures now. his 'perfect' complexion, nicely toussled hair, beautiful eyes and cute smile. whoo! and he will pout once in a while and have weird expressions. oh man. i have no idea what to say about it. 语无伦次.

okays. i sound like a perv. hahaa. anyways, mellie, mello, nanz and sam think i am a perv. haha. they think i have an obession with sam's boobs, which is obviously not the case.
(:

randomness ends here. love you people.
(:

Wednesday, March 21, 2007 4:45:00 PM

hey hey! haha. changed the pic. cos i so love this part of the ng scenes where he 撒娇. haha.

kinda pixelated. try my best to make it better, when i have the time. till then, bear with it lah.

good thing, the face kinda blurred. haha. ashamed of him.
((:

4:02:00 PM

just changed my blogskin. something different this time round.

purple background. love this colour. not too bold or light. easy on the eyes.

mr tang's picture. i chose this picture because i don't want to show his full face. and it shows him in the recording studio, doing what he loves most, singing.

of cos, the main selling point is it shows his hand. that beautiful left hand with long slender fingers holding the pencil.

alrightys. my weird obession with left handers. haha.

hmm. what else? oh. the song. it's the instrumental of 最爱还是你. taken off his wretch. haha.

i'm quite a stealer from his wretch. shh. haha.

alrightys. i really should go and rest and start studying soon. i'm still having blocks! haha.

(:

12:58:00 PM

i wanted to type out this post in chinese, because it has more "feel" in chinese. it's a really tedious process so i still hope to achieve the aim. but if i do give up halfway, don't blame me okay. anyways, not likely you'll finish reading it. i have a feeling it'll be a really long cheena post. okays. here comes.

我曾经喜欢猴子，青蛙，粉红色。现在喜欢上了横线条(horizontal stripes)，深紫色(royal purple)。熟悉的感觉吗? 对了，就是我喜欢过的人喜欢或相似的东西。

我认为喜欢一个人，就会喜欢上他的一切。

喜欢一个人的时候会常常想起他，每一件事都会联想到他。每一个背影都会是‘他’。

我的口味是比较怪一点，喜欢的人都怪怪的。也因很奇怪的原因而喜欢上他们。

自己本身很常批评喜欢的人。说他娘，俗辣，自大，超级自恋，没有用，没有talent。但我就还是很喜欢他。我真的是怪脚一个。哈哈。

昨天nexa让我做了一个心理测验。结果是我会因为喜欢上一个人而感到幸福。真的也。

我其实已经忘了我要说些什么，记忆力不好是这样子得啦。

anyways，我喜欢上一个人了。某位唐先生。虽然我好像已经讲了很多次但都是很肤浅的。

这次，真的，我喜欢上他了。就像我曾经喜欢姓张的一样，这么喜欢他。

"我偷偷想你嘴角就會笑"

我已经无法自拔的喜欢上唐先生了。

对，就这样。

我就是喜欢上一个不该爱得人。一个我对他又爱又恨的人。

他的自大让我受不了。他的无敌自恋让我有点恶心。还会不时的装可爱。

但我就是喜欢他那下私底下感性的一面。想很多的一面。

他常常有很不同的感触。根本和阿布一样。以我们常用的惯语就是emo kid。

我超不想承认我喜欢上他了，因为满丢脸的。

算了。看在我今天真的很爱他的份上，我要公告全世界。

我喜欢你，唐先生，超喜欢你。

他真的和姓张的很像。白白，肉肉，娘。

哈哈。我的典型嘛，永远逃不掉的宿命。

我对唐先生的喜欢，肯定会超出宝贝的。而且应该会比姓张的短暂。

但会在我的生命中留下痕迹，烙印。

至于对宝贝的爱，会一直留在我心里。毕竟，是不同等级的。而宝贝将会是持久性的。

好了，分享完毕，虽然并非完整但够了。

老人得去休息了。

祝，永远的单纯快乐。

(:

p.s. 我自称oh老人，因为我是老老人(pun intended)。而且我认为自己的思想蛮老人的。哈哈。

*好眼淚壞眼淚唐禹哲客串演出

Wednesday, March 07, 2007 11:24:00 PM

love it. cos it has bawan. just sharing my love with you babes.

oh. and he has a very very nice, soft-spoken voice. not that i like the song but i love bawan!!

so cute!!
(: