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Sunday, January 14, 2007 1:32:00 AM
突然间，我世界被打乱。似乎我应该高兴但我却，没有那个勇气去享这一切，因为担心，因为害怕，因为不想再失去你。好不容易的把你的一切慢慢的不去想起，一直催眠自己不可以因为你的一点一滴而轻易的受到影响。
今天我又想起你，而你也很巧的在这一天告诉我你想我。是天意吗?是一种缘分的指示吗?
这正是所谓的爱的深，伤的痛吧。与其说是你伤我，更应该说是自己想的太多，把自己伤的更痛。
当初要不是我那么看不开，想的那么死板，可能也不会有这么一天。我知道你会来这个部落格，在这再次的跟你说声对不起。我的自私让你也受了不少的伤害，让你痛苦了。至今，你也不知道到底是发生了什么事而我却一直没把事情的来龙去脉告诉你，就想要你原谅我。我真的是浑蛋。
对不起，但也要谢谢你一直的没把我从你的脑海里忘记。
我还是不知道应该如何继续这段感情，或者这段感情会有什么不测改变。就让我在此再次跟你说声，"i loved you. i love you. and will always love you. no matter what happens, you'll maintain a place in my heart, in that little hidden secret corner, and i will keep on missing you. this is my truest shoutout to you. sorry for being such a coward, not having the courage to approach you but i know you are doing fine, with people around supporting you, loving you. i might be jealous of them at times but i am really glad for their presence too. they have taken over my position to accompany you, love you, protect you. all these might be my own assumption but i am really happy to know that you are okay, you are happy, you are blessed, you are loved. it's enough. enough to keep me going, continuing my journey of life. babe, i really love you. hope you will love me long enough too. thanks for all the times, for everything. love you."
