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Sunday, July 04, 2004 2:24:00 AM
yesterday and today
it's the 4th of july and i'm still awake, most probably still thinking it's the 3rd of july. spend the past 5 hours online. doing what? maths, game, chat, fanfic, worldvision. i believe the first 3 need no introduction.
fanfic. it's something me and nex came up with. a story. the link? don't ask me. i won't say.
worldvision. heard it coincidentally about on radio the other day. just heard the web so went on to see. the people around the world are really poor. they really need help. you should go on and look at them some day. http://www.worldvision.org or http://www.worldvision.org.sg please take a look at the prayer guide and pray for every single cause listed there.
anything else? just decided blog surfing. first blog on the list, clau's. just a few posts and it's making me wanna blog. always wondering why is clau's thinking so unique. she thinks really differently and far. reminds me of my friend ken.
ken. had a chat on msn with him some days ago. his thinking really inspires me. at this age, he is thinking of saving the human race. he was appointed to comment on the class so he, being straight-forward, offened the whole class. even his closest friend is about to turn against him. he told me this ideology. humans, people, us, we, shouldn't listen to good stuff all the time. we shouldn't get complacent and get into comfort zone. we must face it, face our faults.
"if you think to the furthest extend, the world is going to end in a few million years... if we human still possess this kinda of attitude and not influencing our next generation, the earth would definitely end.." "man just don't get themselves to adapt to changes.. they make the world to adapt to them.. in years to come when the sun conquer mercury and move on to the earth, we have to adapt ourselves in new environment and if we don't try to adapt to changes now, death is the only way left and then human extinction.." quoted from him.
don't you think it's true? i really admire him for this ideology at such a young and playful age. he really thinks and cares. but what about us? we just slack, play and study, if it's even being done.
been feeling the blues since we completed the fanfic. maybe because it's too sad. but. why? why? why? can someone get me an answer?
just chatted with yit jing. talked about getting famous. it's been our dream since so long ago. we have tried too. but. it's all for what? fame? popularity? or for the true music and dance? i believe is true music and dance. but how is it possible to get it done when the market is so full of crap now? everything is done for the sake of money. is getting the true music so difficult? is doing one's favourite genre of music so difficult?
no wonder taiwanese singer roy qiu decided to leave the singing industry. because he thinks his original motive of releasing albums is gone. all that's left is something he didn't like. i admire him for his courage.
idols. just read a comment on our fanfic and someone said we killed her idol. he is a character in our story who died in an accident. can people get any more worse? if just by a story is called killing, what's a true murder? can we just wake up from this idolisation trance and don't get too crazy in it? crazy enough to have those words typed out of our hands.
people. i wrote a sentence in the fanfic. it reads,"Just remember me as a passer-by in your life, and not one who will walk it with you. Continue walking and you'll find him." i marvel at how i managed to come up with that line. i myself have no idea why this popped up. is it true? that there will be the one to walk your life with? i believe christians will say is HIM. i guess so too. since relationships won't last long enough.
msn nick. [when you are in times of trouble, i will be there. but please do not take me for granted, because someday... i might leave..] my msn nick. jammy just told me it's chim. it is? but i think this is the correct attitude to life. we shouldn't take people for granted to much. i believe most of us have experienced it this year. oh, i took it from nings. not ningdie ya.
"life's like an airport. full of arrivals and departures." came up with it myself. but it's quite true ya. people come and go in our lifes. it coincides with the quote above ya. one arrivals in out life and we take him for granted too much. one day, he leaves and we realised that life's empty with him. all because we took him for granted to much. but one question, how can one not take another for granted too much? because i am still trying to learn but to no avail.
this is one of my most lenghty and thought-provoking post. hope it's the same for you.
too many whys in our lifes
