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Tuesday, October 07, 2003 6:48:00 PM
about feelings:
i thought about alot today. about life, about friends, about feelings. i think feelings is a very strange thing. it makes your feel differently about different stuff. just now when eunice left the chinese class, she said."bye, shuwei's girlfriend." and i replied,"i am not shuwei's girlfriend and i don't want to be his girlfriend." this answer came very naturally. after replying, i started to wonder about why i would have this reply. i mean, don't i like shuwei? why don't i want to be this girlfriend? then, i realised that liking an idol is really different from liking a real person, not that an idol's unreal but you know what i mean. the way i feel for shuwei is different from the way i feel for a normal crush. for example, i like daniel a long time ago and i always hoped that my future boyfriend will look or be like him, but my crush turned out to be rather short and is on the chubbly side. he is just so different from daniel. why would i like him then? because an idol's crush is really different from a real person's crush. after much thinking just now, i have concluded that the way i felt for shuwei is just admiration and not the like or love in the feelings way. well, feelings is just a very funny thing that no one can control or understand. have you ever really considered if you like or love a person in the correct way? i think it's time for you to start thinking.
