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Monday, September 08, 2003 8:43:00 PM
now: today is the 8th of september. now i am writing my first post, marking the start of my blog.
feeling: sad, tired, exhausted, drained, empty and lonely. all thanks to energy and the fanfic i read. energy is really taking every single bit of energy i have in me. don't you find it funny? energy taking away energy. for those who have no idea what is energy, it is a taiwanese boyband. been tearing lots lately, due to the contract conflict. and just read a diam sad and touching fanfic. it really drained all the tears in me. feeling much better after letting everything out. finally! been trying to get everything out for weeks. but feeling more tired after letting everything out. why? i thought i am supposed to feel happier and freer? instead i felt both physically and mentally drained. this is the funny thing about life and emotions.
today: had a happy day, other than the energy episode, and class ended very early today. went to have breakfast with clau and eunice. spent hours on the computer today, about 4 hours. and 1 hour is spent on looking at energy's pictures, 2 hours on reading fanfic and going through the tons of emails i have. the rest is spent on doing this blog. didn't get to study at all, thanks to celly as she is sick and can't study with me. too bad.
wishes: hope that celly gets well soon and nexa will do well for her ballet exam tomorrow. also hoping that yun returns to energy soon. keeping my faith in yun. and to energy, just wanna say,"JIA YOU!"
thoughts of the day: is life really beautiful or is it out to torture others? i wonder... ...
